Shadows

Awaken the child on a stormy night,
The shadows stretch to grasp her fright,
seen only in a lightning flash,
Reaching figures black as ash,
The branch of a tree is the dark ones hand,
Longing to tear her from her land,
A teddy bears ghost spread on the floor,
Becomes a grizzly with fangs and more,
The half open door leading to her room,
Is a darkened portal from the gloom,
Another flash and here again,
Phantoms and ghouls, alone they stand,
The thunders cracks their only voice,
Screaming out her only choice,
As they draw closer to her bed,
She pulls the quilt above her head,
Where are her mommy and daddy now?
How could the leave her here, how?
Tonight she closes her eyes once more,
But they shall open never more

A Shadow in the Dark

I'm a shadow in the dark,
invisible and alone,
I'm a page ripped from a book,
lost writings of a tome,

i'm a footprint in the sand,
washed away from home,
i'm the girl at the end of your book,
the one made of stone

I'm the girl the waves stole,
not even fully grown,
i'm the sky without the sun,
at night the seed is sown

I'm the plant in all the ash,
the one thats never known
i'm the plant that withered away,
just an unheard moan

Whispers in the dark

Whisper to me in the dark
and watch my body fall apart
collapsing in the blackest hole
as the demons devour me whole
whisper softly in the night
watch me struggle to lose the fight
and listen close you`ll here me scream
`take me from this awful dream
of burning buildings and tortured freinds,`
And this nightmare never ends
i feel it burning at my skin
and i fight to keep it in
but this nightmare it wants out
it want to see what i scream about
Only so it can make it worse
I have to live forever with this curse
so whisper, whisper, quietly,
they can hear us and they can see
they`recoming out to break us now,
so everybody just stay down...

Brainstorm

Rain, rain, in my braim,
Thunder crashes again, again,
and from these storms i`ve always ran,
as far away as i can,
and i run, i run and hide,
I fin a cave and hide inside,
and wait in fear as clouds roll by,
wait in tears and wonder why,
a storm will come most everyday,
and everyday i run away,
lightning flashes and i scream,
awaken from another dream,
and twist the shadows from my bed,
to form more nightmares in my head,
life is torture but what is death?
how do i know which is for the best?
I`ve given up on getting mad, I`ve given up on feeling sad,
These empty feelings pass me by,
and these empty tears never dry,
So why should i bother with anything,
when new pain follows everything,
why even bother giving up,
I`ll still have the same old luck,
I`m a shadow in the dark,
a ragdoll ripped and torn apart,
I`m a guard dog runnaway,
and i`m the whisperes that you say,
I`m everywhere but no one knows,
as the pain inside me grows,
so let it rain iside my brain,
I`m done playing this stupid game.

In Dead Of Night 2

Restless in the dead of night,
in my head the same old fight,
that brings my thoughts to suicide,
and to these thoughts i must abide,
for if theres a god he hates me so,
to give me this pain that no one knows,
and relief i cannot find,
from the demons who torture my mind,
so its me who says goodbye,
so think of me in dead of night...

Broken

I was born a broken seed,
And grew up a mangled weed.

Raused in gravel all alone,
A dusty useless home.

i hungered for nurturing, i got none,
I lived a life devoid of fun.

Trampled and stepped on all my life,
always loosing a pointless fight.

And if i wither and drift away,
Its just another lonely day.

No one see`s the beauty in a weed,
They only see a broken seed.

The Story

Where is the joy i so desperately need?
My hearts a field full of weeds
sorrow runs wit these hollow tears
blood pumped full of awful fears
nerves are racking,
while panic`s attacking.

I`ll say goodbye to all I`ve loved,
to all my memories stained in blood,
Hell is nothing compared to this,
at least after the torture there a moment of bliss
Nothing is left,
Justa an empty chest.

My dreams have been shattered and stomped,
by some rediculous god
a fairy tale gon horribly wrong
a never ending terrible song
my mind runs on like a radio
my heart beats on like a stereo
Hollow and cold,
The story got old.

Where were you?

Where were you when i needed you?
You slipped away when i closed my eyes,
Its peple like you that turned the screw,
That turned my thoughts to suicide,
I slashed my wrists and inner thighs,
I've chugged down sioda and sleeping pills,
All because of your terrible lies,
the words that slowly made me ill,
so where were you when I fell apart,
Where did you go when the screams broke through,
What did you do about my broken heart?
why do i have to scream at you?
you were gone thats where you were,
you didn't care about how i felt,
you can't feel the pain i've always felt,
But i still don't know where you went...

Note:
I i think i wrote this poem to my parents and god...

End

Empty bottle on my window sill,
downing soda and sleeping pills,
wishing that my life would end,
wishing that the wounds would mend,
all i see is black and white,
all isee is dark as night,
i hold the razor to my wrist,
and i slowly make a fist,
wondering when the night will end,
wondering when i`ll strust a friend
empty bottle on my window sill,
drowning in sorrow and happy pills

Lost

Alone again in my room,
stewing in my sorrow and gloom,
I get a buzz but it never lasts,
the happiness is gone so fast,
from the pills i take each day,
i may as well throw them away.
and though i`m looking for something more,
I can never find what i`m looking for.
all i want is just to hide,
from the sorrow deep inside,
but i find comfort in my blood,
makers me forget what i`m running from,
yet still the tears will always flow,
and the gloom will never go.
Here istand with this knife,
O lord please just end my life...

North star

Oh north star, so very bright,
Lighting up my darkest night,
just as you led the shephards three,
to the child the wished top see,
you are showing my broken soul,
to the peices to make it whole,
oh holy spirit, watching over,
as the days grow colder and colder,
you are there to dry my tears,
and lead me from my darkest fears,
lthough nightmares torture my mind,
and i have no place to hide,
the north star is shining bright,
lighting up my darkest night.

NOTE:
This poem only has religious references because i had to write it for a christian ethics project, in all reality i am an athiest. this poem refers to the stars, where i often find hope when i'm lost.

Demons

Demons are living in my min,
calling my name all the time,
they haunt and twist,
just shadows in the mist.
maria watches by my door,
i watch her cry and drift through the floor,
i want her to care,
because she's there.
demons follow me to school,
where the kids are so very cruel,
they keep calling out my name,
things will never be the same.
maria's sitting on a chair,
i smile when i see her there,
she looks at me,
then floats so free...

Solitude

Snow is falling all around,
LAnding beside me on the ground,
I run my hands along the frost,
I think of all the friends i've lost,
as the snow turns to storm,
I lay here a frozen form,
Like the snow my thoughts swirl and twist,
as I think of all I miss,
I see a girl, frozen in time,
I listen to her as she cries,
her mother came to comfort her,
now she lays, alone, unsure,
she walks away into the night,
she folds her arms and says goodbye,
the world to me seems so cruel,
we all obey these stupid rules,
and for what, to die alone?
thats the fate I'll always know...
that little girl left me long ago,
she left and let my hatred flow,
mother left with that girl so strange,
just like me, mother changed
she no longer came to comfort me,
insteqad i cried myself to sleep,
she ignored me when i screamed,
she didn't believe the nightmare dreams,
but when i lay in pools of blood,
she'll love me like no one could,
rain is falling all around, landing above me on the ground...

A gruesome Lymrick

I think bullets are really swell,
they end lives and makes things well,
take a bullet to the brain,
It'll end your pain,
Cause i don't believe in hell.

Crush Kill Destroy

Crush kill destroy
parvulus obscurum

Crush, kill, destroy,
life is but a toy,
torture, murder, burn,
the ashes in the urn,
broken, twisted, sobbing,
i hear the demons calling,
falling, screaming, dying,
thats what i get for lying,
crush, kill, destroy,
life is but a toy.

2 new poems

The Clouded Sky
Parvulus Obscurum

I walked with him, hand in hand,
I walked with him to my dream land...
My first love, at young age 12,
turned my life to living hell,
He loved me truly, i thought he did,
But i knew nothing, i was only a kid,
He stayed with me, for so long,
it crushed my heart when he was gone,
He had to leave me, your typical guy,
he turned my heart into the clouded sky,
you couldn't see into it, you can't see through,
and so i hid it, from me, from you,
I'll lock it away, because i must,
I broke the key, cause no man can I trust

Beautiful Silence
by Parvulus Obscurum

Darkest darkness, take my soul,
Broken forever, I'm not whole,
beautiful silence, enveloping my,
through the tears, I cannot see,
The hellfire burns by my feet,
I fall to my knee's, I claim defeat,
Through the hollow land 0f hell,
Silence echoes a story to tell,
a story of a lost girls fate,
a story of a sad girls hate,
beautiful silence, echoing,
the sorrow that my life did bring,
what did i do to deserve
the echo of the hated words,
Death is painful
Life is worse.

New poem: Mother Dearest

Mother Dearest

By Parvulus Obscurum

Mother help me, I'm terrified
There's something inside i cannot hide
A curse, A curse is threatening me,
A curse from which i can`t break free,
It crushed my soul, it broke my heart,
from inside it tore me apart,
mother dearest, don't you care?
I hear your breathing, i know you're there,
Can't you rid me of my curse?
Or will you only make it worse?
Still you're there, the one i trust,
I'll follow you in death, If i must
Through all my years I've held you near,
I cling to you, Oh mother dear

In Dead Of Night

In Dead Of Night

By Parvulus Obscurum

In the snow i like to lie,

I cross my arms, I wait to die,

I watch the sky above my head,

I ask the clouds to take me dead,

And when I lie in bed awake,

I pray the loprd my soul to take,

But how many times am I ignored?

In life i'm hated, in death adored,

And so i say good night to you,

The ones who love me, so very few,

And as I drift into the night,

I pray the lord to end my fight,

to those who hate me, to those who don't,

I give to you, this poem i wrote,

I wish that you will see the light,

and think of me in dead of night...